Manage episode 233599158 series 2338525
Every now and then the name 'TeaLeaf' pops back into my mind. Back in college I met this person called TeaLeaf on Xbox Live while playing Halo Reach. At the end of a match this message was sent to me from this player and it just had some really bad stuff in it. You ever get a message from someone that raises red flags about them, hinting suicide and what not? It was one of those kind of messages.
Now, I moved out of my college dorm not long after meeting TeaLeaf, I was done with college and going back to my mom's place. After that I didn't touch my Xbox or Xbox Live much. Finally, after some time passed, I jumped back on, and looked through my friend's list and sadly, I didn't see TeaLeaf any where. Not the name nor the pic (the name might have changed, but I would've remembered the Profile Pic and all).
Now, maybe there is a reason. Like me TeaLeaf moved and stopped touching Xbox, I don't know. But since I don't know the exact reason behind it, and I still remember those red flag raising messages I got, there is a chance something worse happened. I don't know, and it bothers me that I don't know. After all this time I figured I'd just drop the story online since I have this platform now. Maybe in a crazy chance of fate I get answers about my old friend TeaLeaf.
I'm going to drop the link to the suicide lifeline website as well as the number. If you're going through something reach out them. Reach out to friends, family, someone, someone that you can physically meet with. And if you know someone going through this, do it for them. Reach out to them. It's always good to have someone there.
Or, I could be a complete idiot and TeaLeaf just changed name and pic and I never noticed. Regardless, take care everyone. It was a beautiful day today and it will be a beautiful week.